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You Deserve Better Than Me

When I look at you.
I still see all the pain I put you through.
The make-up on your eyes can’t hide the pain you feel inside… I know.
If I could change the past I would
I’d take it all back if I could…
You deserve so much better than me.

All your friends would say I was wrong
For leading you on like I was ready commit,
While knowing deep down inside,
I was still on that nonsense.
I was a young man playing a young boy’s game,
Such a selfish thing..
You deserve so much better than me.

If I were you I would be
Packing all my things and leaving them in the middle of the street.
I would have done it in a heartbeat
Because you deserve so much better than me.

How I would justify in my mind,
Staying out all night.
I would tell my self “Im the man”
And that was supposed to make it right.
As you waited faithfully for me to come home,
I was in her bed doing wrong…
You deserve so much better than me

So today, I apologize
For all those sleepless nights.
I guess I can’t get mad when I see, you and him in the streets

Because you finally found someone better than me..

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