Remomabilia

Mereka berkata ambisiku terlalu tinggi. Mimpiku kejauhan.  Lalu mereka berbalik arah atau mundur perlahan pergi.  I just said, "I am realistic"  Aku bukan ingin sekedar mengejar kekayaan. Not for greed. Bukan sekedar ketamakan.  Aku hanya ingin bisa hidup nyaman dengan uang yg aku punya.  Tanpa perlu khawatir kalau keluargaku tak bisa makan keesokan harinya.  Tanpa was-was adikku bisa sekolah dengan nyaman menggapai apa yg ingin ia capai di masa depannya Mereka bilang saya terlalu ambisius.  Saya kata 'mungkin anda yang terlalu payah untuk bisa mendampingi saya' 

I've been sruggling with my commitment with you. There is so many thing im not sure of.  So many disappointment and dissatisfied.  I thought for a long time to leave us. You.  But meeting you. Talking with you. Asking your opinion.  When im down. When im happy. Even after everything. After many second thought. You're still that precious person in my life. The person who always been there. Trying your best to stand by me. Take care of me. My best friend. Be travel buddy, my rocks for so many years. Then why.. When i finally begin to hope again. Maybe it really not meant to be.  Why the hollow when you said 'you are not ready', when you talk about your family opinion. Im in Bekasi, Jakarta.  You are in Purwokerto.  I understand. Even if it hurts.