Curious though..

I wonder beib..

What would happen.. if we got into huge fight , then we just stop talking to each other.

We go out of our way to ignore the other presence. Being quiet.

You live your life like usual like nothing happened, same as me.

And then something happened.

I just stop. There is no sound, No news, No message..

Im dissapear.

Would you notice ?

Either it because im too busy with my day-to-day life, too mad at you, i wanna hybernate, or something happened at me.

I want to know for sure. If that car crushed me, walk over take my body with it, would it still be as scary as before?
I wanna meet them once again beib.. my passing member of society that is so dear to me. i wanna know if i still get rejected for join them in valhalla..
Maybe i would get my peace of mind for once. Like what i always wanted to do.

Would you notice if suddenly i gone beib? Dissapear from the crowd..

Would you get worry and stressed over Cause you couldn't find me anywhere again.. would you try search for me all around..

Huh. Maybe it Will be like everday ordinary day you go through. So boring. Maybe.

Or maybe you'll be too busy to notice. Uh i dont know..

I never think I would ever be pried as so precious and valuable and important individual for another human being. Im just too ordinary. Nothing special by the way.

Ah entahlah sedang mengawang bebas aja. Ga ada meaning apa-apa..

Cuma merancang berbagai skenario.

Semoga aku sempat dan ga lupa minta maaf dan memintamu selalu jaga diri yah.

Ah apalagi lah..

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