The value of your happiness

Heeeeeeeey..

It doesn't mean anything really..
That thing just cross my mind.

I know you..
How being kind, honest, useful and could bring happiness to the people around you is your way of life..

And how you Loved it to see and make me smile and happy with you..

I know dear..

Similar to my principle, i think..
The way to my eternal happiness is to bring the light and happiness to my surrounding, especially my beloved people like my family, my friend and now, you.

Im happy to be with you, more happy through your happiness smile and face. How your laugh, your warm gaze always warm and melt me inside.

I dont know if you relize it dear. How precious it is. The moment with you, how dear you are to me.. I don't know if you realize it or no. I dont think you do..

Im not perfect dear, you know this too well. And you too, maybe you are not that perfect human being. Maybe out there, there Will be someone or some people that is more than you, more handsome 😛, more wealthy, more everything..

I know you are not perfect, but it doesn't matter for me. You are enough dear. You are special just the way you are.

This chance to meet and be with you is like god blessing for me. And i feel so lucky and grateful about it.

You make me stop and rest my self for awhile, rearrange my way, my world. From this relationship i learn and realize many thing about life, about my self, about you and how Love supposed to be.

I found my 'aufklarung' moment maybe. Hahaha..

You changed me dear, in a positive way..

Thank you so much dear. And i Love you..

You are that bright star in my long night, that i seek but never realize the need for it before..

I do believe god have a plan or a reason for us. Whatever it Will be..

You make me hope and dream about the future with you. Topic that always i ignored before..
My life is not easy, i am not easy person. And life itself is hard and big world.. the thought about marriage, children, make a family of my own is so far away.. though a bit covered by fear. Yeah i fear the future of myself.

Until i meet you. Until that time when you ask me about us, build our future together. The thought that always haunted me, and now you parade it in from of me.

You changed my mind about it. About my possible future. You enggage me in dreamscape of our own, and i fly so high..

Today, i do believe in you. Life maybe hard, the future maybe unpredictable, but i know i could face it now. You strengthen me, you make me confidence.. that the future, my future Will be bearable to face. Cause i Have you.. Cause Im with you..

Today i confidence to stay with you as long as you need me. I confess that i do loving and care for you so much..

Theg..

The thought that my parent Will reject you cross my mind, oh..

If some bad thing happen that stop our intention to be together, if you couldn't wait for me anymore, if you choose to not bear the future with me anymore, please tell me dear.. dont just go away without permission.

Find someone else dear, find and live your happiness dear.. please. You must be happy..

Losing you is nightmare maybe, and it Will crush me. I know it. Cause you are the one, the only one who ever touch me, my mind, my soul, so deep. And it scary how you make me that easily to trusting you.

I Will go down. But i believe i would live. Life around me still go on.

And you must be always happy dear. Always.. even though not with me.

Cause you already know it, i live my happiness through your happiness.

So let be happy dear, always and forever..