dont you want to know, dear?

Kamu pernah menanyakan adakah aku melihat cahaya terang di depan dibalik masalah ku ini?

Benarkah kamu ingin tahu jawabnya sayang?
Yakin kau siap mendengarnya?
Aku tak ingin membebani mu dengan ceritaku, dengan harapanku.. kamu tak bertanggung jawab dengan apa yang ada di isi otakku kan ay..

Don't you know what is it that cross my mind after huge fight come over me, tear my head out, break my heart into pieces..? What is it that held me on when i almost got caught into depresion zone again..??

Like what happen now.. i still standing. Try to hold on. Cooling down my head and face the music with head up. Even though their words still cut deep and wounded me. I promise you that i would take care of my self. That i would be strong and standing through this storm.

Dear..
Dont you know the answer by yourself?
Couldn't you find the answer without i open my mouth?
You know where my eyes pointing at.. you know whose face it is that i would stare at..

Im sorry that i must depend on you to rely and support me. That you become my pillar who help me standing straight and not easily go down with the storm. Im sorry dear. That you must be one of my biggest reason and motivation to keep held smiling and bright face. You are my light that i try to reach.

Sorry.

Bagiku pasangan ya bukan sekedar teman kala sepi, kawan bersenang, tukang ojek atau diskusi atau yang bisa diminta tolong apa aja. Nggak. Justru aku ga begitu nyaman terlalu harus menggantungkan diri pada orang lain. Kalau cuma fungsi kaya begitu, aku bisa nyari teman untuk masing-masing fungsi yang dibutuhkan.

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